Like Hulu’s Candy but better…

I completed it. It’s a crime drama miniseries. Gives you a picturesque story, visually appealing than Candy complete with its soothing soundtrack. Candy is dark… intense and gritty.

Just like my 2025.

2025 is ending soon and my anxiety is getting out of whack! Feels like I had done nothing the past months, all I did was worry for myself yet idle… well at least during my PE today with the PCP she was pleased and happy to see the progress I made— “what changes did you make? your cholesterol and A1c are perfectly normal”— that’s what she said.  I whispered “nada”. In fact I have been lagging around. Early this year though, I was too bold and determined with my plans to keep me live and alive in years to come.

BUT nada! Nil! Nichts! Rien! Alang nangyari sa akin!

My frustrations made me!

Candy heard Betty shushed her that she went berserk!  Instead of defending herself from the coming thwacks—-she hit Betty back— 41 times!

Her frustrations made her!

Just like Candy.

One day I’m alive, motivated…then BAM!  A punch hit my gut!  Punches actually.  Then I sulk…mortifying the flesh….of what? Or from?

I dunno…. Maybe myself???

Love and Death.

More like Me and Death.

The Bee Gees sang my death…

And for once in my life, I’m alone
And I gotta let her know just in time before I go
Well I laughed, but that didn’t hurt
And it’s only her love that keeps me wearing this dirt
Now I’m crying, but deep down inside
Well I did it to her, now it’s my turn to die
One more hour and my life will be through
Hold on, hold on

I say—- I move now or it’s really my turn to die…

G.